I am divorced and lost everything dear to me. My three beautiful children. I lost the battle sad to put it that way due to the fact I couldn\'t afford it and hard to say my oldest son was lying about me! I have been depressed for years about so many events on my life and the only thing that brought me joy was taking from me. I ended up with someone who I thought was my night in shining armor but wasn\'t like that at all!!! I have been scared for my life! Abused and broken down to where death seems welcoming and in fact I almost met it a few weeks ago with my head bashed open! I am homeless and have a diesease called spinal stenosis that limits my everyday life! I need help and a better future/life!!! There are days I just want it all to end but I have to keep living for my children! I have made a lot of bad choices out of fear and pray that things turn around and I have a normal safe life. I have nobody to blame but myself for the wrong decisions I have made like everyone says... I just need an angel and Jesus to perform a miracle.